Friday, August 7, 2015

We were talking… [2009]

These dialogues wrest of me the fortitude found in illness.

(I hemorrhaged from the fundament
for this?)

"if yours is to be found
it might not be found
in the instinct
or rather
the soul of you"

(take it...take it...)

"but one might look
out in the yard
in the firepit
or on the bottom
of one's shoe"

(find far away to be)

"however
one thing is certain
you will not find it
in your wallet
or in the work you do"

(milk...eggs...bread...toilet paper)

"you might think
of scaling 
a mountain
to get yourself
a better view"

(oh boy, here we go)

...about religion and politics and how large sums of money are made.

Thursday, August 6, 2015

pome [2011]

winter dropped
as it had     (the tome)
before fall
onto hardwood

  a season pulled
  taut across seeds

off burnt knees
startled     (collapsed)
face down in
his own fruit
dust
laundry
illusion
notebook
 
  the short title
            read like hunger

  the floor was
devoured

and he
declined

to
           eat

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

________ [2010]

____________ spoke and glowed in the dark
frightening me     when I was in junior high

it must be the smell that makes ____________
so difficult to get through

I would hide in my room     with the lights off     
on ____________     to avoid the landlord

when I was a kid     ____________ was garbage
and in the summer     that meant maggots

on two different occasions     almost a decade apart
I got food poisoning on ____________

it's not just ____________ that upsets me
it's also unreasonable behavior     and bananas

this whole ____________ thing
seems to be rubbing off on the rabbits

I don't know about the crotch
but ____________ is definitely the armpit

I'd like to pin ____________ down
and give it the beating it deserves

I write the worst poems on ____________
including blues and ____________

Monday, August 3, 2015

how the afternoon became animated and informed a generation of evenings [2012]

surprise     brunch is a paragraph
a prelude in boysenberry
           pinching Steamboat Willie and a Johnny Mathis song and dirty laundry 
            and a name tag

stanching language from 
a seized buddhist sphincter is 
a feat and
           like so many Dodie Bellamy(s)
this is plural     jiggered

also a doohickey

she would animate Disney from
behind     (an electric wreckage)
with cocks for throttled tongues
and partitions for
           undergarments

afternoon abrasions are 
acts in cracking progress...

"I can go to Belladodie right now and read the material from The Buddhist presented in a much more colorful, aesthetically pleasing, and multi-dimensional format.  Add to these elements the fact that it doesn't cost me anything to read from your blog, and I begin to wonder:  in what way, or ways, is it beneficial to have this work published as a "book", especially considering that you're dealing with a publisher that exists almost entirely within the same realm as your blog, and doesn't have the promotional capacities of a more "traditional" publishing house?"

(...)
"Yeah?"
"[     ]?  It's Dodie."
(...)
                        "...as the only way I keep up with my life.  I like acting immoral..."
"...on cold hard concrete.  I don't think it..."
"...I'm also unsure whether something happened or..."
(...)
"...you imagined it.  It had been boarded up, so I just gave her..."
(...)
"...a glance at Kevin, gathered the stuff, and...you imagined it when The Buddhist..."
"...the windows to see the market..."
"...turns out...that appealed to dirty old men.  I wondered if he had dipped into..."
"...for magazines.  And...The Buddhist is absolutely next?  Whatever..."
"...can an acid..."
(...)
"...isn't my name.   Consider how long I sat...it on that...list..."
"...feeling what you're...I've done before..."
"...at all illegal..."
"...to..."
"...clinician..."
"...intercom."
(...)
"[     ]?  [     ]?"
(...)
...and a conversation is 
harmonic gossip    (an erasure irradiated)

and mammoth animals
populate me and the stage
and someone went home
crying

[the learned man in 
the close-fitting tee
tricked me with subtitles
and absconded with
my Solution Passage]

then seventeen of us     retired to
an undisclosed location and
talked into deteriorating
evenings
            and we ate Tabouli and flipped through Richard Tuttle's pages and chuckled and
            dodged marauding children and stared also questions through Dodie's forehead and

Sunday, August 2, 2015

Occupy Sonnets, 01-05 [2011]

shots

these days)     this really is quite a clear hearing
spiritual solidarity with brave folks
GREEDY MOTHERFUCKERS!     and most of us (my
United States of America) erupting
occupy Wall Street     but I simply cannot
upon a park bench)     attempt to see it through

this bubbling cauldron of diarrhea and tears
atheist)     choose to call yourself whatever
of course leaves love to see C-H-A-N-G-E
self included)     just too damned complacent and
shots     into a civil war you'd better be
them stifling no matter what     (situation

isn't about time that we     as a nation
lackey heads (and you) knocking the front line fucking

❊     ❊     ❊     ❊     ❊

treasons

I noticed     one of the cabinets turning
approaching the energy field     (cold manner
then     I have to complete some deceit research
about the size of a pocket bible under
both hyper-creativity AND subversion
ALL of us "regular" folks     Republican

mine is unsatisfied     revolt with its choice
a creature I don't know is on a sign smiling
I appreciate you)     being in charge crime
but it didn't really deliver (deception
oh     and I just discovered temperature
that John Boehner weeping is our velvet Elvis

there must be equity in sacrifice losing
treasons)     in what language does tired read you?

❊     ❊     ❊     ❊     ❊

coasters

at your feet)     moved goods to your crumbling market
people on your knuckles     (tools for that matter)
built a factory out there     you don't have to
because of police forces and marauding bands
someone is gratified     and the paid problem
a chair wants to be clear as a table setting

in this country     coasters got rich and swollen
kept a big hunk of it     (and keep a bigger
safe in your blood of bare hands and social contract
you might feel     by the next kid that comes along
labor forces that "waking from your rage" lyric
and there)     twitching bodies crumpled in a heap

blackout     come and seize everything you hired
there is no one on the freeway to educate

❊     ❊     ❊     ❊     ❊

crashes

a decade ago)     I never used to see
them     or choose to subscribe to all of their points
but I remember being influenced by greed
(also inside this section is a little white)
for example     let's say you hate a profit
and being called an arrow is an example

but it is old and that kind of approach     (some
I visited     (the kingdom is regarded)
in the dark     idiot crashes didn't hide
poems more than write them     liberty stairsteps
REMEMBER BEING UNIMPRESSED     at all costs
this will solve the problem of not seeing someone

from an architectural standpoint     crashes
are real)     I should probably see it again

❊     ❊     ❊     ❊     ❊

enactors

there are many     famous examples of my
ethics time is no longer the time of your life
and who's wondering anymore     (unjust right
probably did hurt her     we didn't need to
keep feeding us)     your previous arguments
could have been an American mathematics

the problem has evolved     later and career
make atheists and agnostics the war machine
these patriots     our enactors transgressing
she is free)     (studied college philosophies
upon the examples of a comedian
through     without being read or killed in Iraq

alleviating suffering is moral "like"
thousands of innocents)     WE NEVER FORGET

Saturday, August 1, 2015

(rhetoric) X (labor) : an identity play in one act -- Prelude and Scene One [2012]


Characters:
M - a disembodied, narrating voice
N - a disembodied, narrating voice
T - a poet
A - a body/voice
G - a body/voice
U - a body/voice
CHORUS - A, G, and U in unison

Setting:
Now

Location:
Inside a live-electronics circuit



PRELUDE:
T walks out to the center of the empty stage, turns to face the audience, and recites a short poem.
T
I've not stopped being
any of the Xs
I am
and
this creates me
exhausted and unfamiliar

T exits stage, leaving it once again empty.  The house lights go out.  The overture begins to play.  Throughout the duration of the overture, A, G, and U take turns walking back and forth across the stage, occasionally stopping to make hand gestures toward the ceiling, always with their backs to the audience.  Overture ends.
END PRELUDE


SCENE ONE:
Still lights out.  Sounds of unknown origin.  After approximately 30 seconds, a white backdrop begins to display a series of quotes.  This creates a dimly lit space, into which A, G, and U enter.  G is carrying a trumpet.  They mill about aimlessly, as if in a trance, occasionally bouncing off of one another, but they never make any further attempts at engagement.
G
There are many different types that 
I am interested in.

A
Disposing of "content" is more
difficult than generating it.

G
I assumed that it was beautiful, 
and I was correct.

U
Why was I in X's parents' home in 
last night's dream?  What was I
hoping to achieve?

G
I imagine myself as a single square
in an immense plaid pattern.

U
Why are there so many light and
sculpted beards?  I mean, they're
hardly there.

A
Perhaps the mystery is being 
removed from the process, and this
is a vital element?

G
The "I" is less prevalent in later
chapters.

CHORUS
Am I no longer listening?

G
If I encountered him now, I would 
no longer allow him to pass.

U
Perhaps I should alphabetize the
library.  This could be the 
disorder.

A
If you follow the directions, all
the necessary information will be
revealed.

U
Something is wrong, though it is 
almost nothing.

G
My shoulders are not sharp or 
frail.  I could not crush them in
my hands.

U
What might I see if I bothered to
look?

G
I must resume the search for it.

A, G, and U continue to move about the space, though no longer trance-bound, performing odd solo activities, and occasionally taking notice of M's tale.

M
I stood on the tips of my sneakers,
attempting to balance on the edge 
of the air conditioning unit, and
X was on the ground next to me, 
spotting me, looking up with eager
eyes.  The light had just gone on
in her room, and through the
window pane, she began to undress
before me.  I think X might
actually have been drooling in
anticipation.  I whispered to X
(lying), indicating that she had
left the room, so that I might
enjoy the show all for myself.  
And, as her bra and panties came 
off, I was truly alone.

The three bodies snap back into the cycle of trance-like meandering.

A
(shouting)
The ellipsis is a whore!  Fuck her!
(as if making a realization)
Or... pimp her.

U
(exasperated)
Time?  What the hell good is that 
going to do me?

A
Tickling is a re-engagement with
strangeness.
G
If only this were as easy as 
blowing my horn.
(momentarily pensive)
Wait... that became quite
difficult, didn't it?

U
I wish things were as simple as
the symbols we wear.  I might
pout and smoke.

A
Empty seats are preferred,
especially considering what might
fill them.

CHORUS
If only I were fortunate enough
to not know that this is cyclical
by nature.

G
I miss the team.  We're all just
individual players now; free agents
who will not be signed.

A
Sometimes a smile is all that is 
necessary, or a dumb look.

G
He is perceived as a fantastic 
companion, but I know better.

U
I am too easily stunned when I'm
sitting in public areas.

G
Why do I not want to be right 
and/or good?

U
I might just suck on a Slurpee and
get fatter, sicker, and deader.

G
I need a sandwich.

A, G, and U cease wandering and line up, side by side, backs to the audience, in the extreme fore of stage right.
N
I am the as-yet-unknown entity.  I
have fabulous taste in music, as
well as in literature, art, film, 
fashion, and architecture.  I am
what they all aspire to be.  I am 
a teacher, and an artist.  I am
sophisticated, and I am dangerous 
in more than one way.  I am also
mysterious, and nearly 
unidentifiable.

A, G, and U drop out of line and return, once again, to their meanderings.
A
And the object was something that
should be objected to, too.

U
Green is something to carry the 
weight and moisture, but it is not
a sponge.

A
Another was grinning in fishnet
stockings.

U
There was a welcome mat outside the
door that read:  "this is working".

CHORUS
(momentarily frozen in place)
This is working.  This is working.
This is working.

G
I should wake up tomorrow and get to
the gym, or even go right now.

U
Why can't I seem to reconcile my
contrasting arguments?

G
There is a bowl of steaming clam
chowder awaiting me in the foyer.

A
The other eye is crying at the same
time.

CHORUS
Left and right are not the same as
they once were.  Understanding is
trouble.

G
I occasionally mistake the sound of
her voice for that of a cuica.

A
A dozen young people spoke of their
experiences and lied.

U
He claimed to be burning more 
calories standing up.

A
It was off-putting to see him 
exposing himself like that.

U
The bulk of him appeared below the
belt line.

A
"They" are polite and cordial as 
they greet "them".  What are "they"
selling?

A stands frozen in place as G and U exit the stage.  G and U return with a table and two chairs, and proceed to set them up with the table stretching lengthwise from fore- to background, and with the chairs on opposite sides, facing stage left and right, respectively.  G and U then sit opposite one another, shake hands, and stare blankly into one another's eyes.  A then leaves the stage and returns with a boom-box, which is placed at the background end of the table with A standing directly behind it.  A presses PLAY on the cassette deck and an approximately 75-second clip of Sonic Youth's "Schizophrenia" is heard.  A, G and U listen intently.  When the clip ends, A presses STOP on the cassette deck and the three bodies remain in position.  The white backdrop no longer displays quotes.  The sounds of unknown origin fade.  The house lights come on.  A, G and U remain in place as T walks out to center stage, turns to face the audience, and recites a short poem.
T
some have been happy from
the beginning     smiling
(I'm confusing them now)
I am witnessing the "first"
in relation to all four
A and T exit, leaving G and U on stage as house lights fade.
END SCENE ONE